My Pity Party

Hi there and welcome to my pity party. I suppose you may be wondering what is a pity party and why am I inviting you to join me at it? Well we all have them.........they are the moments in life that get you down and sometimes keep you down for a really long time. However, we sometimes need to learn to share these moments with others in a good way so that we can waddle in our pity and then get back up on our feet and move forward with life. So here goes and I invite you to get your tissue box ready ahead of time.
My person current pity party began on a beautiful spring day last June 4th. I went to work at my parents farm with my three children Tyson, Dillon, and Amelia and even had my 84 year old grandmother in tow. Everything was going as planned. Dillon and Amelia were helping do chores around the house with their cousins Kailee and Jadyn and Tyson he was off being a big boy helping the men spray muskthisle (a noxious weed) in the pastures on ATVs. Then as lunch time arrived one of the hired men came bringing Tyson to the house and said he had wrecked the ATV and something was seriously wrong. We called 911 and got Tyson undressed to see what was wrong. He was talking, but in a lot of pain. He told his grandmother he would never work on the farm again. Then I said 'Baby hold on God and he Angels are here and 911 is on the way.' He said 'Wait God I can't go yet I have to tell my mom something.........Mom I love you!'. Then the 911 crew arrived and we headed for the hospital, but he didn't make it he died in transport. My son was a courageous young man whom had survived cancer (Leukemia-ALL) twice and knew how to live life to the fullest. I know he is with Jesus and that he suffers no more.
But this is where my latest pity party began and has remained with me for the last 10 months. In some ways it has totally ruined my life. I am not the same person I once was nor do I ever expect to be that same person. However, I know that I have to start making the effort to live again. So I am hoping thru these blogs and the wonderful people that I know God will lead me to that I will be able to do just that. So thank you for listening and if you have any ideas about what could help me go on living please share them. God Bless you All!